Going Back home in 1 week's time

we will be heading home soon. back to MY, back to my nice bed and pampering.. back to family and friends.. can't wait..

not much updates

Kids are better now. but i have been sick and having this very bad ear imbalance.. sigh.. feels so horrible

will try to upload pics lats

the most horrible sickies ever!

i have been through a horrible ordeal with the 2 kids being sick. that explains the lack of posts. i have been at home and hardly did any work for the past 3 days.

Joel got well on Tuesday (10/11). That was the same day Jovan was developing the same high fever symptoms. as i always believe Jovan is stronger, the fever was even harsher to him compared to Joel. He was running temperature of 41.4.. i cannot imagine what happens if it goes any higher.

On wed, i decided to stay home with him. most of the time he is fine after neurofen but after 6 hours the fever comes again. and he is so weak and helpless as it is harder to get him to take in fluid and food compared to Joel. Even giving him medication is a challenge. the condition got worse each time

On thurs, i decided to stay home again but working from home. Not much of a work as i had to carry him the whole day while attending calls and typing emails. it was a pain and it breaks my heart even more each time i see him fight an episode of the fever

then on Friday in the wee morning, his condition got even more worse. he was shivering badly and his body was so hot!. i told hubs his lips are already blue, that was when we rushed to the hospital.. and the whole time jovan was like so weak and couldn't even lift his hands or move.. i was so scared and praying so hard that he will be alright. when we sort everything out, we went back and rest.. it was a nightmare.. Jovan is having a very bad viral infection.. affecting his breathing and making it hard for him to eat or take in air.. i had to carry him most of the time upright to make sure he can breathe easily. my arms are so sore now.. i have been carrying the little boy for days!

Then on Sat, the fever managed to come only after 9 hours. and the last neurofen he had was 3.30am this morning. He is still weak and hasn't eaten for more than 3 days.. how does one survive without any food. i have been trying to nurse him as often as i can but at times he just seems so weak to even suck. but i have been forcing water down on him, so hopefully he will recover and his appetite will return. he is so skinny now i dun wanna post any pics.
i have never felt so awful and helpless as a mommy before. and for once i know i can trade everything in this world including my own life just to have him feel better. i was so tempted to just take emergency leave and not work forever! and go back home..
it is just so scary without anyone here, and it makes me feel worse that i am feeling ok and my 2 kids are sick, why can't it be me that is sick?
anyway, i hope they are stronger after this. this has been the worst ever i seen Jovan sick and i really don't want to go through that. visits after visits to doctors who always give the same advise and not much of a help. but hopefully this is the last of the fever i have to endure. me and hubs are really drained out, emotionally and physically...

Swine flu?

Joel is still sick. he has been having fever non stop for a week now. Jovan was also having fever as well yesterday.. i really dunno what else i can do.

really sad

Sickies...

Joel has been very sick since Tues. As the doc says that it is a viral infection, no antibioctics was given. his fever went all the way up to 40C! and he was struggling with meals and sleep. he even puke badly on Tues.

He still insists on going to the daycare. he doesn't want to be at home. but funny how he is fine the whole afternoon and when night comes, it gets sooo bad

Jovan fell sick as well on Thurs. but his max temp was 38C. he recovered within a day

It has been more than 3 days and Joel is still sick. i just administered neurofen this morning and kept sponging him all the time. then i blame myself for not b/feeding him longer. there is just so much difference between both boys. So, it is my fault that Joel does not recover that fast cause his body is just way weaker.. sigh.. my 3rd baby (if ever) will be breastfed for the longest time.. and yes, Jovan is still nursing till today.. that's how extreme both boys are..

Get well soon Joel.. mommy misses your chirpy smile and voice..

Small little conversations

for those that follow this blog, they will know the track record of how slow Joel can be with milestones. and how sticky and difficult he had been as a little baby. even till today, he has developed a much more gentle and sensitive personality compared to the younger brother but he still have issues with letting go of attachment items like dummy and pillows and still very reluctant to be potty trained. i don't blame him, i blame myself for not being stern enough or put in more effort to help him be better. i am working on it..:)
Lately, i have been trying to talk him out of the dummy. i told him dummy is not nice, it is bad, etc.. then yesterday he told me " Dummy is not nice, it is good".. sigh..
Joel also has alot of favorite things, like jelly, soft drinks, fries..(yes, all the junkies). he loves eating meat.. no rice and no vegies for this boy..
and his all time favorite show- WIPEOUT!. he calls it the fall down show cause everyone in the show always tend to fall down. today we were suppose to go out dinner and his all time favorite show is on. he kept insisting that we kept the tv on even when we were about to go out.. i guess his thinking is, if the tv is on, the show will continue to be on.. not much of a brainer, this son of mine.. but he is hilarious and for sure, he cares for everyone dear to him. he knows how to put things aside for joy joy even though he hasn;t seen her.. he holds didi hand when didi is trying to walk.. he brushes my hair and rubs his smelly face against mine.. and best thing, he plants big generous kisses on my face.. i am having some pimples erupting now cause of this but what are pimples when i get such great loving..;)
his innocence cracks us up. and he just makes me so proud even when he does so little. that's my eldest son!